******* Warning - vent alert *******
Grumble, grumble, grumble. Have been in tears twice in 12 hours from frustration and feeling like a failure. It is not all due to PCP. Yes I know it is a phase and it will pass but I need to vent. So stop reading now if you are needing some positive energy today.
It is hot, I am tired from not enough sleep and I am frustrated with hitting a few plateaus that refuse to budge. I feel like I am running around with my hair on fire and not doing anything well enough and some things at home are not being done at all.
I am hungry too. I have noticed a pattern though as by this day in our "week" I am hungry but then by the end of our PCP week my stomach has adjusted to the new diet only to have it change again.
My skipping is giving me the biggest problems in PCP at the moment. I seem to have hit a plateau with them and it is frustrating the hell out of me. I can't seem to stop tripping. I can sometimes make it to 100 or slightly over before I trip but mostly I average around 30-40 skips.
Yesterday, after what seemed like the 50th time I had flicked myself in the shins I yelled out in frustration at myself and made the baby cry. Poor kid was playing with his toys quietly while I was skipping.
I focus on my form and fix my gaze in one spot but I invariably step on the rope or hit myself in the shins. I try to fix my arm motion but nothing seems to work. Logically it seems that if I am standing on the rope then I am not turning it fast enough with my hands. I am jumping with both feet as I can't do anything with a hopping motion.
I am so frustrated especially when I read other blogs of people who can knock over their skips in 10-12 minutes or so in blocks of 300 or more. It takes me at least 20 and this is a long time when trying to get things done before the baby needs attention.
My skill hasn't improved in skipping for weeks which is why I feel I have plateaued.
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I know I need more sleep and it is not possible to be wonder woman every day but it is Friday today so hopefully I can get a lie in tomorrow if the baby complies.
In happier news, there is another pair of pants that are hanging off me and look like I am wearing a few sizes too big for me. So off into the Salvation Army bag for these.
What rope you using? I went from thin leather (rubbish) to thin plastic (better) to thick plastic (great). This heavy one knackered my arms for a while but once I got used to that was light yrs ahead. It can spin slower without losing its shape so give you more time to focus on form. You have to like a bit of pain though coz it smarts when it whips ur toes/shins/arse.
ReplyDeleteI am exactly feeling the same, we are in the same boat. Just keep continuing don't over think, try your best and forget abt the rest.
ReplyDeleteTracey if it helps you at all, my skipping has gone the same way yours has in the last 3 days. Except that you are doing even better than I am. Yesterday I was tripping every skip for about 10, then I would get 20 in, then maybe if I was lucky it was more. Takes me a MINIMUM of 20 minutes to do my skipping. Sometimes 25. Now the cool air helps but makes the rope thwacking me very sore, so also nearly cried. But the thing that keeps me going is that I am making the assumption that Patrick wants us to maintain a certain aerobic state for a certain amount of time. If ours is longer then lets just believe that means that we are burning more fat than we would if we killed ourselves trying to get the time shorter. Slow and steady is my motto at the moment. Because if it is slow and steady I will do it, and if I try to rush I can't. Also I realise if I yell bad words people around me actually understand what I am saying.
ReplyDeleteSame thing with the hunger here too. Hence sneaking hubbies Chinese take away. I have just finished breakfast and am looking at the clock to see when I am able to have my snack.
Remember: you are operating in very hot and humid climate, you have an 8 month old baby, you are working, you are trying to do a very intensive programme. I continue to be amazed as I don't think I could have done it when I was at that stage in my life. SOOOOOO you are not alone. My skipping sucks, my exercises suck, BUT my husband commented on my tight tummy this morning!!!! OK round and tighter, but still, tighter. So let's congratulate ourselves on the little daily achievements, such as supplying the SA with our old clothes!
Rant away. I'm really not with it this week if it makes you feel better. Despite actually being good at skipping I'm now not able to do so as my ankle is so sore. It is 5.30 and I havent done any exercise at all today and I actually think today will be my 1st failure exercise wise. I could cry I'm so tired. Not sure if I have caught the bug that both mine seem to have had this week but I feel like sh*t. Just focus on those pants...your photos are showing the results.
ReplyDeleteThank you for all your kind words everybody. They really help.
ReplyDeleteI did my skipping today after work and before dinner. Still lots of trips but I wasn't as frustrated with them as I was yesterday. Perhaps just writing about it gets it out of one's system and lets you get on with it.
I may never get good at skipping but at least I know I can rant about it whenever it all gets too much.
Yes rant all you want Tracey - I certainly do and it def helps.
ReplyDeleteWe're both in very similar situations re the lil one so I know how exhausting it can be and how just one bad sleepless night can throw one off for DAYS!!
My lil one was up last night fm 130-530am so you are not alone!
Btw, guess what i was doing whilst sitting in the semi darkness waiting for her to fall asleep? Checking out your blog! For some reason, recalled you had one and pulled it up. Let's just say I went through abt 20+ pages of "older posts". Loved seeing the daily snapshots and you are doing so well with Max - he is such a cutie! So give yourself a nice pat on the back for handling everything with so much grace. and we're almost half way there and the results are showing so plow on!
And Pete may have a point - try another jump rope. I have one with a digital counter that just doesn't agree with me. Can't do more than 20 before tripping. The one I'm using allows me to do 300 at a go...so try another one.
Oh yeah, blog it out Tracey! This is all totally normal and in fact a sign of good mental health! You're asking a lot from your body and right about now it's going to be a maximum whiney resistance. You just keep going!
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